Getting prepared for my new normal

 

By Lisa Shapiro
Staff Writer
 
Here I am, 35 years old and expecting my first child on October 9. I can hardly believe it. 
Sometimes I don’t feel like I’m pregnant and I wonder if the baby is still there. I can’t wait for my next ultrasound so I can have actual proof that it is there and it is doing well. I constantly worry that I am not doing what I should be doing, like eating the right things, exercising enough and sleeping the right way in bed. 
I keep thinking about how the baby is going to affect my life and what changes are ahead. 
My husband and I love to travel and we originally had plans to fly to Spain this year. I understand once the little one arrives we won’t have the luxury to just pick up and leave whenever we want. I also understand my husband and I won’t have enough alone time as we would like.
As I think about all of the things that I am giving up, I feel really nervous about all of the changes. I know I have to be more mature and responsible, be careful about what language I use and keep my emotions in check. I worry sometimes what kind of an example I’m going to set for my child. 
This new phase in my life is scary at times, yet exciting at other times. It’s like I’m venturing out into the unknown. I know once I finish this journey to unknown territory, all of the uncertainty and fear will go away. It will take a while for things to return to normalcy. Then it will be a new normal. 
I keep envisioning the type of person I want my child to grow up to be and what I should do to prepare them for adulthood. I want them to have a good education, to be a good role model in society and achieve great things in their lives. 
I will not be disappointed if the baby is a boy or a girl. The idea of having a little one around is exciting. 
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